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I'm feeling so bad. Yesterday for 3rd day I was so tired that when I got home I had nap for 1:30 hours, then I got up, I cooked, I did the lunch for next day, I had dinner then I went to bed again. It was hard to fall asleep because how bad I felt. I checked my heart and it was the problem... 48 bpm. I don't know why I didn't realize before that my heart could be the reason of all my fatigue.

Today I woke up at 6 am still feeling bad, I took the kids to the school then I came back home, not feeling good to work. I fell asleep until 11 am, checked my heart after got up and it was 50 bpm but I forced myself not to go back to sleep. When it was time to pick kids from school my mother called me and start yelling to me because I was at home but I didn't go to pick Martu. I explained to her that I was feeling very bad and I could not make my heart go faster, she didn't care and continue yelling at me, saying that she had to stop doing her things to make me a favor when I was at home!!! Of course she didn't even ask if I needed something at all because she gives a shit. I told her don't worry I won't ever ask for a favor again and that I was not feeling great to argue then I hung up. The older she becomes, the more aggresive she is.

I messaged my sister to warning her about my mother, because she works with her and last weekend my mother was aggressive to my sister so better she try to avoid talking to her. My sister said if arguing with mom didn't make my heart go faster then there is nothing that can help me lol. I was a little upset so I did online shopping. I bought groceries, a new mug to drink coffee, a box to put inside the stuff I use to make the bullet journal and another blue pillow.

After confirm the order I was still upset soooo I went to AliExpress and I bought 2 set of 45 stickers for journals, 5 Zebra highlighter midliner and 28 washitapes. I got 4usd discount and free shipping to my country. It will take 2 months to arrive though and if I am lucky Customs wont stop my order making me pay taxes. My heart didn't get better but my mood did.

I worker a little in the design for the law firm then I had dinner and I did 30 minutes of bike to see if this helps my heart. I tried to catch up with journals but I think I'm still delayed. Now I'm going to bed to do study 1 English lesson then sleep.

Current Mood: sick

I'm being more productive since I enter to work earlier. I need to fix my sleeping because I still go to bed same hour than before, which means I usually sleep 4 to 5 hours and that makes me feel tired.

Yesterday I felt really tired. After work I went to the copy center to binding Martu's English book then I went to some stores to try to buy highlighters pastel they didn't have. Probably I'll need to buy it on Amazon then send it to Michael's house. When I got home I tidy the house and I mopped the floor, I take a shower then I started to cook beef empanadas. Flor and her boyfriend came for dinner and I also invited my sister and niece.

We had good time and I really enjoyed the night. I'm happy that my sister didn't want to drink beer and Flor is losing weight and trying to give up smoking. Those little things make me happy :) I went to bed at 11 pm, tried to write logos for my customer but I felt asleep.

I had a quiet but nice Saturday. I worked 4.30 hours as usual. My sister and I decided not to go to the weekend house because mom went on Friday so this meant we had to go by train and bus.... no thanks! Instead that, my sister invited me to her house to have dinner together with kids. So that was the new plan.

After work I came home and worked for a while on the website of one of my customers but I felt so sleepy that I had to take a nap!. I woke up at 7 pm then I worked 3 hours on the website. I could not finish what I was doing because the dinner was ready then Martu and I went to my sister's apartment. She did some meat stuffed with vegetables, it was delicious. After eat we drink coffee and stayed talking about random topics. We had nice time :)

At 1 am I came back home but now I was so sleepy to continue working on websites so I went to the bed and I read "The woman in cabin 10" until 4 am, then I fell asleep.

Current Mood: lazy

I got home pissed because that man bothering me. I went directly to my bedroom to change clothes, then Martu came with dirty chocolate face... I asked what she did that she had chocolate in her face and she replied I should go to the living room and look over the table. This is what I got:

The cup was empty, she said I needed to do the coffee which I did then I took the photo. The cupcake is from my niece's party. Martu melted chocolate and fill its center with it and almonds. it was delicious!

She's so sweet

This made my day :)

Current Mood: loved

I want to write about some things that are going on last days but I didn't find time to write about.

Michael updated his resume and he applied for a new job. I can't believe that he finally stopped being afraid of everything! He's not happy with his actual job since long time but he was afraid to look for new job and realized that nobody wants hire him, afraid to fail. I hope he gets a better job, it will helps him a lot to build confidence. He also started working on his agenda to add some things that he wants to do, like losing weight, doing exercise, start his own project again. He also is tracking is sleeping with Fitbit and this scares us. The first day, in 6 hours of sleeping he woke up 21 times (1h 6m total) and he slept deeply just 45 minutes. This explain why he is always tired and irritated doesn't matter how many hours he sleeps. He's afraid he will have a heart attack in this way. Anyway he's being lovely with me. Oh, the flowers he sent me for Valentines lasted many days!

The friend and the business partner of my mother keep messaging me to invite me to hang out. The friend is pissing me off, he push so much and keep using the phrase "because at weekend you are alone" to forced me to do something with him. Now he changed his tactic and he "is worried because I'm having hard time and he wants to help me" WTF... who said that I'm having hard time? I can complain about work or how expensive things are here but it doesn't mean that I'm bad and having hard time, I don't need his help at all. This man is really obssesive, that is a very good reason for not to be his friend.

Martu started middle school this week, she was excited about! So bad her enthusiasm will not last long and soon I'll struggle with waking her up early. This year she will have Yoga, Chess and signing Coral, I hope she likes it. I love to see how she grows up, she's doing so well. I leave her in the school at 7pm then I go to work. I get work 1 hour early which means that I'm alone until my coworkers get the office and go home 1 hour early :D

There are new potential customers who want to buy a website. One website is for an online radio and the other is to sell clothes. Let's see if I can get them :)

Last month I've been helping my sister to do my niece's 15th years party, something similar to the Sweet 16 or Quinceañera. The topic was the ocean and we decorated everything with blue and white colors. Because my sister paid everything herlsef we tried to do as much as we could do. She rented a house that was perfect for this, and they decorated it. Then we did all the decoration for the candy bar, the bottles for the juice, bread boxes, souvenirs, decoration for the sweet table, etc. She bought the cake and the food and mom helped with that because she has a restaurant.

She bought the dress which was not the typical princess dress, and she hired a photographer who did very good job! She took a lot of pictures before the party that are great, very adequate for a teen. I don't like when they try a teen look like an adult sexy woman. My sister wanted I do the makeup because I have a lot of good products for this, so I did although I never did a course for that (I just watched some videos on Youtube). I am pleased with the results! The photographer and the hairdresser said that I did very good job, and my niece and sister loved it. I was so afraid to ruin the makeup because I never tried before colors like blue for the eyes. It surprised me to see that I have more skills than I know. I was preparing her skin with treatments and creams the previous days, and also her hair, so she really looked beautiful.

On Saturday after left work on the way home I realized that my niece didn't have jewelry to use that day in the party, so I bought a ring, earings and bracelet for her. I came home, took a shower then I went to the salon with my sister and mom to bring everything for the party. I did the candy bar then I came back home to makeup my niece. When she left to go to the hairdresser I did my makeup and get dressed. My sister was delayed so I went to the salon alone to welcome the guests while she got ready.

The people were punctual and almost everyone respected the dress code (dressing white). When my niece was ready to enter, there were 15 person that she chose to give to her a heart plated balloon. We did a line, I was the last in the line because I had to organize it for the music starts when she enter. My niece enter with my sister and started to walk and get the ballons, she was so nervous!!! They both were holding tears until they got me in the line, then hugged me and let dropped some tears. My sister was not able to say a word but it was not necessary at all and I didn't say anything for not to ruin their makeup lol :)

Everything was fine. People loved the party, my niece was so so so happy and surrounded by people who really love her. Two friends and her boyfriend said some words to her in front of everybody, it was emotional. We worked harder but it worth, I've never seen my niece so happy before.

The photographer told me that I should study photography and be her partner. She says I've good eye to take photos, I wonder why she thinks that, my photos are pretty normal. She also wants Martu and I go to her house to do some shots, she likes when I smile.... I hate smiling for photos!!! I wish I could see myself through the eyes of another person to know what they see when they look at me, I don't think they see anything special. She took Martu and me like model to take photos in the party and as I could see there are 1 or 2 photos that I liked, so I'll share here when I get the photos.

I went to sleep at 4 am, very tired but full of love. It was a beautiful and emotional day

( Photos )

Current Mood: happy

I had appointment with the surgeon at morning. I wanted to know how much it cost to get ride of my eye bags. I knew it's expensive but anyway I needed to know the exact number, get disappointed and accept my face how it is. Went I entered to the Dr office and I told him why I was there, he made a gesture like if he could guess it before I open my mouth. The first he said was that he does not recommend me to go for a surgery, not just because it's expensive but because my problem is not so bad to go for it. Instead the surgery he recommended me to try with a laser treatment which tightens and rejuvenates the skin, so it can helps to attenuate my eye bags. The laser cost 150 usd against the 1400 than the surgery costs.The only bad thing is that the skin of my eye bags will be purple for few days but I think it worths to try!!!!Even if this doesn nothing on my eye bags it will does something on my eye skin.
I'll do the treatment on March or April. I don't expect it does magic but I hope it helps me to stop my obsession about my eyes.

Mom had appointment with the same Dr later that day so Martu and I waited at home for her to come to pick us. We went back to the weekend house. When we arrived one friend of mom was here waiting for us. He came to organize a dinner for the next night, oh well it seems we will have guests every day while I stay here???? He asked me for help him to set up his iPhone, which I did, then he used this excuse to add me in whatsapp. Later that night he messaged me and it seems he will do it every night the next days. This is the reason why I try to avoid human contact.
He is 47 years old, single, no kids, not sure what his profession is but I know he owns some houses in this place. Obviously, a rich man. He looks pretty normal, not ugly not sexy, just a normal man and he is showing interest on me, in fact the other friends of mom started to make jokes about this. That just make me more uncomfortable. I don't know if I became too old or too antisocial but I don't like men flirt to me. Instead of that I will like if he acts like a friend and stay in that place. Otherwise I have not interest at all to talk to him. Other woman in my place will take advantage of a man like this but that won't be ever me.

When this guy left, Martu wanted to practise to ride the bike, so we did. It was hard to do with the big bike because it's heavy for her to control it and it's also heavy for me to hold its weight and also Martu's weight so I took the small bike, which is very small for Martu, and I raised the seat and the handlebar. Now it was easier for we both to deal with it. After a while I was able to release the bike without Martu falls down, then I ran to her side ready to hold the bike if she lost her balance. It was not necesary but anyway I ran like for 30 minutes. It was a good way to exercise!!! Martu was so excited and happy laughing so hard that sometimes she lost the control of the bike because laughing. That made my day :)

We came back to the house to have dinner then Martu wanted ride the bike again. She wanted to go to the cross, I think it's 1 km away, but she tricked me!!! we did few meters then she stopped saying that she wanted to try the big bike so we changed bikes... can you imagine how I looked riding a kid bike??? she didn't want to change it back and I let her enjoy the victory. I don't remember how I felt when I learned to ride a bike but I want she keeps a good memory of this day.
After few minutes we got the cross and stayed there a little, in the dark of the night, under the stars, running here and there, laughing and taking photos. Riding that small bike killed my legs and made my butt hurts lol but who cares, it was a great night :)

Current Mood: happy
Current Location: under the stars

My sister and I did plan to go shopping because she knew a place to buy cheap school uniforms and also clothes. Mom wanted to come with us so we went to pick my sister and niece to their house and we all went to that city. It was a very bad idea... as soon as my sister got in the car, she and mom started to argue and also to yell... my sister is exactly all that she hates about my mother: agressive, intolerant, hater. I tried to ignore them but I knew it was going to be a shitty day.
The first place we wanted to go was the store to buy the school uniforms. My sister asked for the v-neck shirt and the skirts but they said it was out of stock. I needed more than those but we decided to look for another store so we looked for it on Google...another bad idea. We walked to those stores but they don't sell the kind of uniforms we were looking for. After walking and wasting 1 hour of time we were in the same place where whe were at the start. I bought some clothes for the uniform in a store then I went back to the first store. They had all that I needed for Martu's uniform... I spent more money than I wanted but it was necesary. At this point we all were hungry but we keep walking trying to get white dresses to wear in my niece's party... oh yes, dress code is white clothes and I'm not happy about that.
We went to few stores when my mother proposed to move to another city. My sister was agree but I didn't wanted because the stores in that other city are expensive. I told that to them but Ilet them decide. We bought lingerie in a store then we moved to the other place.
The first store we entered had normal price but we couldn't find white clothes that we like. As usual mom didn't remember were the stores that she wanted go were so we started to walk. I tried a lot of white dresses that I didn't like and which were also expensive. My sister was moody and complaining althought we were in that fucking situation because her stupid dress code. Mom was upset with my sister, and I was tired and hungry with a bloody headache. All that I have was less than half banana split frappuccino from Starbucks.

After 2 hours walking and trying white clothes we were ready to give up when mom's friend told us where we could go to buy nice and cheap clothes. It was our last try. In the second store we were, we all got white dresses which fit us. The one I got was very cheap. I liked it because it's very simple dress and the fabric is soooooooo good. It cost me 17 dolars!!!

I also got a cheap dress for Martu in a expensive store for teens. I was not going to spend so much money in white clothes which probably we won't wear again. It was a very shitty day but at least I got all that I was looking for. I went to sleep to my house.
Self-note: never do shopping with mom and my sister together anymore.

Current Mood: tired

Yesterday after working I put some clothes in a bag for Martu and me, my book, tablet, cellphone and mom came to pick us. My sister and niece were coming too. The weather can't be better, 93F and sunny. We got the weekend house, we settled then we went to the swimming pool.

The water was perfect! I stayed in the pool for a couple of hours then I went out and I laid on the donut towel to read my book :D

This towel is so funny I love it, this is how it looks:

At 8 pm we went back to the house and we started to cook. Two friends of mom came to have dinner with us. I had fun looking how one of them was telling to my mother nonstop that she doesn't let him talk. He told me "your mother doesn't listen to me and doesn't let me talk!!!". She justify herself saying that it's because she knows what he will says. I felt shame of her attitud and I replied to him "Welcome to my life".I don't know how the man didn't punch my mother in her face lol

I don't know how I do to do all that I do. It was a long week. I left work late twice. Sales manager was in the city and he wanted to modify all the price again so it's good that I didn't update the list price yet. But this mean that in 9 days when I take my week of vacations the list price will shows old prices. One more time he waste time talking so much and losing focus so I could not teach him how to do all what I do. He trust my coworker will do that, and he will, but I know he will do a lot of mistakes. It's not my problem anyway.

In 10 weeks we will participate of a trade show and of course I am in charge of it. there is a lot of things that I need to do like banners, brochures, videos, advertising, designing the stand, etc. I already have some ideas of what I want to do. I asked to sales manager who will go since the trade show is in another province, and he asked me to go with the local seller and someone else, probably fat ass, which means I'll be stucked in the truck with him for 13-14 hours, unless my boss be smart and send me by plane while he goes by car. Anyway my boss still doesn't know that sales manager wants send me there and maybe she won't want. We will see.

Another thing that keep me very busy this month is my niece's birthday party. I printed the photo props and they look great! it's a win. I also started to build the online guestbook for her and so far I could get a way to make this works like I wanted. Another win! Today my sister, niece and I went to the center of the city to buy things for handcrafts. We got all the stuff we were looking for, and we spent on it less that it cost in our place. We walked from store to store for 5 hours, my iPhone says we did 12k steps so we are tired but happy because now we can start making the souvenirs, decorations, etc... well mostly me, because my sister is not good for handcrafts. I do not work the next 3 days but I'll be busy with this.

Anyway despite all the things that keep me busy this week, I had some time to read books (Origin, and Pride and prejudice) and to watch few episodes of The Fall.

Now I'll have dinner with my sister and we will continue working on the decoration. I hope everybody is having a nice weekend!

"There was a woman (me) who did plans for relax at weekend in the country house. Her plans were ruined by a very talkative mother who did not stop talking, singing, making noises nonstop until she went to bed."

On Sunday I woke up earlier than I wished, at 10 am. As I expected, I didn't sleep weel because I didn't have my pillow. When I woke up my arms were numb and sore. I got up and went to the kitchen to make coffee, then I thidied the house while my mother went to pick my sister, my niece and the photographer. They came to take the photos for my niece's photobook.

When they arrived we had lunch then I wanted to go to the pool but my niece needed someone who does her makeup, so I stayed in the house and I did it. I also smoothed her hair. The first photos were at the pool so we went together. I had to help the photographer with the photo reflective screen. After she took all the photos that she wanted, my sister, niece and me swimming for a while then we started the next photo session.

While the photographer was taking photos, I did the same with my iPhone 7. I LOVE its camera! I took great photos. Some of those photos were in the lake, others in the path of trees, other in the bridge.

We went from here to there for hours until it got dark and we had to stop. We was exhausted! We ate pizza then we came back home.
It was a long day and I could not relax as I planned but I enjoyed so much helping my niece :)

Current Mood: happy

I’ve survived January… barely. This week was the hell. Despite administrative guy is back at work I couldn’t catch up with my tasks, in fact I’m more delayed. I didn’t finish commissions and I couldn’t update the price list. I can’t delegate anything because most of my coworkers don’t even do their own things. Some days I have lunch at the desk… I feel I’m collapsing.

Yesterday it was my niece’s birthday. After work I went to see her and I came back home at midnight. So good we live in the same building!.
She is 15 now and we will do a big party in 1 month. My sister is organizing everything and I’m going to help. I want to build a digital guest book but I need to think how to do it. When someone arrive I will take a photo and ask to the person to sign it, then I’ll upload the photo to the guestbook website and let them write a message. I’m looking for some app to do it using just my iPhone but I couldn’t find anything, so I guess I’m going to build a wordpress website and use some plugin to make it looks like a guestbook. I’ll bring the notebook to the salon for people leave the message. Probably I will need to use a tablet to take the photos if I want that people sign the photo, this means that I’ll need to use the Lenovo Yoga tablet because the camera is great. But then I need an app which let me take photos and also write on it.

I can use Google photos or Google drive to save there the photo and quickly download it in the tablet to post in the website.

Another thing I need to do is designing the photo props, then print them and add a stick for people can hold them. I’ll also buy 3 letters, paint them with white color and illuminate them with rice christmas lights. Another things I will help with: souvenirs, candy bar, makeup, the base for the muffins-cake, and decoration.

I enjoy doing this but I know how tired and stressed I will be in March. During the day my head is so busy with work then at night with the party. Those are not the only situations that stress me. I’m very disappointed about Flor but there is nothing I can do, everyone choose the kind of person they want to be.

Tomorrow I’ll go to the weekend house to relax and swim. I wanted to go early but I have a training until 3 pm. The only good there is that I work from home.

Does anyone have any suggestions for the party?

Current Mood: busy

I said it seems that I'm going to be social this year but I'm about to change my mind. Yesterday at 7pm, 3 hours before the movie started, Flor messaged me saying that she got an awful urinal infection so she was not able to come with me to the cinema. It pissed me off that she didn't tell me early... she had not credit in their phone to messaged me. I can't blame her for getting sick, if she really is sick which seems is true, but I was happy about doing something together. This news just disappointed me and made me moody.

I was about to stay at home although that meant losing the money that I paid for the tickets, but I finally took my niece and her boyfriend with me to the cinema. I hardly ever do something with her so this was a good opportunity to spend time together. I like her, she is smart, quiet, very nice girl. We went to some Shopping mall which is small and has few stores. There were not much option to eat: Lomitos (they sell beef steak sandwiches), pizza store, Burguer King, and Mostaza (another burguer store).
We decide to get the Cheedar burguer with fries. I don't usualy eat junk food and I don't like so much this kind of food but I found it delicious. (maybe because it's been so long since I ate fat).

After eating and having a nice time talking about random topics, we went into the cinema. The movie was not so great as the popcorn was. I don't think it was the kind of movie that two teens would enjoy, but as I wrote in the previous entry I chose that movie because Johnny Deep (also my niece loves him).

Spending time with her was nice, but I would have liked everything to go as I planned it.

Current Mood: blah
Crossposts: https://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/183395.html

II went to my sister's apartment last night. We both live in the same bulding, she's downstair. She invited my father with his ex wife and two of their sons. Last months my sister realized that she likes cooking and she stopped calling the delivery. To be honest her food is pretty decent.
She cooked chicken brochettes, salty pancakes tower, stuffed meat and some frozen cake with icecream. I love sweets but the cake was too sweet for my taste.

( The food... )

I don't fit on very well with my family, we don't even seems from the same family, but I'm able to spend some nice time with them time to time. My family were already in the apartment when I went there. My father said that I looked great then he started to make jokes to my sister about how bad she looks and how nice I am, and tried to take pics of me

I never liked this kind of jokes, neither my sister, and she was about to get moody. I blame to the alcohol for this kind of attitudes.

We had dinner then at midnight we toast. After that we went to the balcony to see the fireworks. It was hard to see from our position.

I also enjoyed looking at the full moon in the sky

At 2.30 am I came back to my apartment and I watched Arrow until 5 am.

Crossposts: https://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/178915.html

I slept less than 5 hours. We was going to leave at 10 am. but for some reason we left at noon. It was a hot and sunny day, perfect to swim so when we got the weekend house I went to the pool with the kids. Almost noone there, it was perfect!!! We stayed in the pool for 2 hours, then we went to have pizza for lunch and we came back to the pool 2 more hours. My sister and my mother joined us this time.

( Pool Pictures! )
I was taking pics of vanellus chilensis birds when I saw a lizard walking next to me

I followed the lizard and it went inside a hole in a corner of the pool. In this place are many of them but it's not so easy to see them.

I took a lot of great pics of my family, so bad I can't say the same about my selfies

At 6 pm they closed the pool and we went back to the house. All the girls started to take shower and get ready for dinner. I did their make up and helped my mom to paint her hair. This woman was the whole weekend losing everything, even a gift for one of us!!! we had to help her to find it

We made fun of her losing everything, and also because she has so much expired food. My sister and I threw everything in the trash while mom kept saying "that is fine to eat". Really she is very hard to hold, and she is just 63 years old, I can't imagine how hard it will be in few more years.
After I helped mom, I took a shower and I did my best to look decent. I was tired and feeling sick, it was difficult to breathe because the nasal congestion.

This is what I did with myself

Our Christmas table:

Flor and I tried a lot of selfies until we got one pretty decent and funny, she is beautiful, is not her? Martu never join us to take pics.

Dinner was a delicious meat with orange sauce and salty pancakes tower that my sister cooked from and old recipe that my grandma used to cook always. It was very nice to eat it again.
At midnight we toast and opened our gifts. My sister never spend money on gifts so she gave me a fashion key ring. I expected nothing from her because she is saving money for my niece 15th birthday. From Martu and Flor I got jewelry and a succulent plant for my mini plants collection!!! Mom gave me a blue blanket which seems will look fine on my bedroom. Everybody liked the gifts that I got for them so I am happy

I went to the bed at 3 am, feeling very sick and tired.

Crossposts: https://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/175066.html

I don't feel like writing so much this week, I am sad to see someone I love destroying herself, and I do not know how to help. At night I have bad sleep, I wake up more than twice every night, and I have bad dreams because my worries. During the day I feel tired, demotivated, I have very hard time trying to deal with all the things I have to deal with.
When I was to the church my friend used to tell me "God does not put on your shoulders more than you can handle", sometimes I believe my friend, or her God, are wrong, I wonder how many things could I hold before to lost my mind. Every person around me is destructive, this is killing me.

I did shopping almost every day trying to comfort myself since there is noone around to get support. I know this doesn't fix anything but at least I had some distraction doing it. Anyway I just bought stupid stuff, is not like I spent whole salary doing shopping.

I went to Avon Beauty Store and I bought the 2 rings, a foot cream with karite, 2 lip liners, and a parfum which I like so much. The only bad thing is that the fragance doesn't stay long on the skin and this is why it cost 1/3 of what an international parfum cost, but the smell is oriental floral with jazmine notes and I like it to use everyday.

Crossposts: https://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/171939.html

Last Saturday my father came home to have dinner together and to talk. We have not seen each other for two years. I was tired because I work on Saturdays and I cleaned the house before he came. We ordered pizza. Dad drank 2 beers and I drank just 1 cup of a drink 4% alcohol. At midnight I was ready to sleep.

I had to drink 2 coffee after the dinner and still was sleepy.
To be honest I didn't enjoy so much the moment together. I didn't have so much to talk about, just about work and family, and both topic are boring. I've told him I don't go to his house because they are always arguing about politics. We talked about how my siblings use alcohol or drugs to evade the reality. I'm the opossite... I'm over aware of reality. He said he has failed 5 times like father, he believe there is not a need to set bounds because he can talk with people and make them reason so they should set their own bounds ... even with his grandchildren 3 years old

He says life is simple, and you have to accept that there are a lot of things that you cant control. He admites he's bad couple, etc. But I never hear him saying he will try to be better person. For me he is an absent father, always busy with his work, gf and hobbies. I feel him like a friend who will be there if I need help. My family make me depressed.

Yesterday I had too much noise inside my head so I didn't leave the bed. I chatted for a couple of hours with Michael and it was all.

Crossposts: http://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/127217.html

Today at work we moved to a the upstair office, wich is smaller than the other but it has some natural light and better ventilation. The good thing: the guy who smells very bad is not so close to me now. The bad thing: the guy who eats with open mouth is closer

About the guy who smells bad, my other coworker and me tried to let him know how bad he smells buy seems he doesn't care at all. He keeps not taking a shower everyday and wearing same shirt for 2 or 3 days in a row. Anyways I'm pretty sure that what smells isn't his shirt but his ass

. The other guy today bought an aromatizer, it was our last try to see if the smelly boy get the message. Well... isn't a "boy".. he's a 40+ man.

When I left work mom called me and I had to run to home to check if my sister, who lives upstair, was fine. His boyfriend dumped her 2 weeks ago and this weekend she's alone because mom go away and we are afraid my sister tries something stupid... another 40+ yo person who act like a teen

So I had to cancel my plan to go to the grocery and cook for the whole week. I don't want to go now to buy food, maybe I'll go tomorrow and today survive with coffee. I'm in my 5th cup of coffee so far. The house smells like coffee!
After the rain of Tuesday it's full of mosquitos, so annoying. They are so big, and the repellent does nothing to them.

My option for the rest of the day: sleeping, watching Netflix, playing Magic Cards, reading a book, beauty routine, studying English, starting a new website or studying programming. I won't clean the house today. Prolly I'll write about the last 2 days of my vacations with Mike. It's been almost a month since I came back.

Current Mood: blah
Crossposts: http://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/117091.html

Two days ago I spoke Flor. Of course she said she has all under control

I think she lies herself and to be honest I'm very disappointed. She doesn't regreat and she doesn't learn nothing from her mistakes. But what can I do? I gave her my opinion and advice, I offered her my help and I tried to don't judge her. So far this is the only I can do I guess

Althought the pain on arms/hands I keep doing workout and fighting to don't feel depressed. Today doctor did an electromyogram after 2 hours waiting.... it was very uncomfortable!!!! they sent electricity on my elbows and wrist to see how my nerves and muscles are working. I'm pissed about my doctor, I feel he's a little stupid. He sent me a topical medication for the pain on my hands but... after put medication on it say I have to was my hands cuz the drug... this obviously isn't for hands

whatever

Since I feel a little depressed because all the stress and issues, and since I need some comfortables shoes to wear everyday I went shopping today.... I got 4 pair of shoes

Mike helped me to chose and here they are

Current Mood: depressed
Current Location: in the hell
Crossposts: http://nattalie-m.livejournal.com/92487.html

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