The Unbearable Lightness of Being

I had a long and busy day. I had to do my work plus my coworker work. For more than 1 year he's doing a poor work, we are not happy with him. Today I spent many hours fixing his shit.  Sales manager called me to add more tasks to my schedule. and I told him that I have my own priorities.
When I got to work fat ass was at the door, he looked at me and said "Do whe have any meeting today???" It's not that he cares if we have any or not, but this is the way he uses to can say that I look nice today. I wore black pants and a new white shirt, high heels and make up. pretty normal clothes for working in an office, stop fucking stare at me. I replied in a rude way that as far as I know there is not any meeting then I walked into the office leaving him behind. (New people who read my journal can believe I am conceited and paranoid girl, but this guy is always harassing me.)

Daniel, who is back from his trip, will help me with quotes. I heard him all the morning saying how tired he is, how much he needs vacations (he already has one week off last month), and complaining about everything as usual. At noon they sent him to deliver an order so I ended alone doing all the fucking job. 
The plan is that Daniel does the quotes while I update the price list (more than 10.000 products), but how he will help with quotes when he doesn't know how to calculate the new prices? So this mean I'll need tell him every single price losing focus on my task. 

Sales manager wants I design and send newsletters, he wants I design the next Facebook campaign, he wants I set the Adwords campaign, also I need update the brochures because they have wrong info and add more things to our website. All those tasks while I do quotes, while I update price list, while I do my coworker tasks, while I calculate commissions, and so on. Tomorrow my boss is going to travel to be with her daugther while she gives birth, another coworker leaves for vacation and next week fat ass will travel to give support to a new seller. Next weeks will suck for me. 
It was enough that I said I want to take a week off next month to Daniel says he will too. I told to this motherfucker that if he wants to take vacations next month he will take first week because I am not going to cancel my vacations again. Sales manager told me also he wants vacations next month and I told him the same: I won't cancel my vacations again!

Today I wanted to uninstall whatsapp. One customer and his wife are looking for me to I set their outlook again in their computers. For some reason that I don't know the guy setted his email as IMAP account so this mean that the emails stay forever in the server. His email box keeps growning nonstop and I have to add more and more quota to it. Right now he has more than 1GB. He has emails that its size is more than 40MB each... WTF!!!!!! Few weeks ago I logged in his computer by teamviewer and I setted his account as POP3. He doesn't remember why he deleted it and he setted the account back to IMAP.  I could give unlimited space to him but I try to keep customers under control.

Another person who messaged me today: one of the ex sellers who stole us. He wants that I work in some webpage for his golf teacher... really? kiss my ass motherfucker. I won't do any job for him. 

And then there was Michael flattering me so much until make me pissed.. yes I got pissed with that. I told him he knows very well for me words without acts means nothing. As usual I was honest in the way that people hate about me. I was not angry but tired of this, we didn't argue just talking. He said that... oh well, I don't care anymore what he says, I just care about what he does. 

Today is one of those days when I don't like humans and I would prefer to stay away from them.

The last complain for today... I gained 2 lbs more. I'm really messing with  my eating so badly, skipping meals, eating fat, drinking coffee. I wanted to fix this a little today so before to come home I went to the greengrocery because I don't have any fruit or vegetables... it was closed because vacations  So my dinner was green tea with chocolate cookies. I cooked rice pasta for tomorrows lunch. 

Today I finish the 5th week of my diet. One more week and I'll stop for some weeks.

Body measurements

	Before start (10/30/17)	Week 5 (12/03/17)
Hips (the widest part)	39.76"	36.61"
Waist (at the level of the navel)	33.07"	29.52"
Thigh	22.44"	21.25"
Arm	9.84"	9.25"
Weight	136.68"	125.22"

This is the weekly summary

I am so tired! So busy this week at work that I just take 30 minutes every day to have lunch. A lot of things are going on and I am stressed, but it seems I am not as much stressed how I used to feel since I stop drinking coffee  

Yesterday was my mother's birthday so she invited me to her restaurante for some music show. When I got the resto there were a lot of her friends sitting at a large table and also her ex husband I felt very uncomfortable in the way he hugged me and told me I was very thiny and nice. I don't like him, he's a dick. I was sitting on the opposite side of the table than my mother so I could not even speak to her, in fact I just spoke with a friend of my mother who I already know The show I didn't care, I do not know new music and I do not like so much latin music. I ate grilled chicken and I came back to home at 11 pm when they were still eating. I had to cook the lunch for today so there was not time for workout or bike.

Today it was another busy day. I delivered an order I sold before go to work, then I worked all day long with comissions. Went I left work I had a celebration so I went straight from there to the school. I had to bring food to share so I bought a quince pie aware that I was going to cheat with my diet. I did it... I had 1 slice of it. It was delicious but I realized that because my diet I am not so excited about sweets like I normally am. I got home late again, I had vegetables for dinner and I did 40 minutes of bike.

Despìte my little cheats this week I have lost 2.2 pounds, I weight 125.4 pounds, I do not even remember when I was so thiny in the past. Maybe it was in my teens when I did ballet. I want to finish this week (the 4th week of my diet) and repeat it one more week but now I am not sure if I want to lose more weight. My pants don't fit me anymore, all are big, and I doubt it will be healthy to weight less than 125 pounds for someone who is 5.5ft. Anyway I have to admite that I have never felt better about my body like now, I start to feel confident and I like that 

This is the 4th week of my diet. My weight is stable which is good but I am afraid I am going to gain some weight, maybe is not healthy if I weight less than 127 pounds so it should be fine.

Body measurements:

Hips (the widest part): 37" 
Waist (at the level of the navel): 30.7" 
Thigh: 21.85"
Arm: 9.44"

Weight: 127.64 pounds 

The weekly summary




I was a lazy ass last week, and as usual my sleep is bad. This is the last week of the diet but I think I'll do 1 more week. there is still some fat I want to burn.

I didnt write my weekly summary yesterday but it was ok. I improved some my sleeping and my heathing, and I keep my activity level. I am still losing weight, slowly because really there is not much left to lose, and I continue burning fat from my hips and waist.
I did 2 weeks of this diet so I have 2 weeks left to finish it. Last weekend I got a little bored with the food and I miss drinking coffee but I wont fuck the diet up right now when I did half way.  in 2 weeks I will rest some days and see how my body react and then I will repeat the diet if I start going up in weight. 

I woke up and weight myself. I'm 129,4 pounds which is nice because after phase 2 I felt I was going to gain some weight. I had peach, blueberries and oatmeal for breakfast, then I dressed up and I did my makeup. 
Snacks today were celery with nuts butter. My boss saw me eating my snack and she made a comment about how healthy I am eathing, then I told her about my diet. She asked me to share it with her because her daughter can not eat flour so I mailed the diet to her lol.... everybody wanna try my diet!!  

Lunch was grilled chicken and salad with quinoa, tomato, avocado and bean sprouts. I also had peach and blueberries again. Day at work was kinda quiet so I used some time to finish a course about leadership and I did the test, I passed it   I joined a new course and probably next week I am going to a conference. I will improve all my skills as much as I can to be very professional on my work. 

I do not know what is wrong with me (ya there is always something wrong) althought I am drinking 2lt water every day, eating a lot of fruit and vegetables, my skin and nails are very dry! It makes not sense. I should see a doctor to get my thyroid checked, it is almost 2 years since they checked it last time. 

I had a poor dinner because I was not so hungry. It was smashed sweet potatos and pumpkin and a boiled egg. I ate while watching first episode of Stranger Things 2 then I did 30 minutes of bike.

I don't remember so much what I did yesterday. I had very busy day at work. When I get home I spent the time cooking for dinner and for the next 2 days. I designed 1 hour while doing bike then I went to sleep. 

Today and tomorrow I am in the phase 2 of the week. This time I did better than the first  week. I cooked the breakfast for tomorrow which is spinach omelette with eggs white. I used enough spinach to be sure I wont be hungry 30 minutes later. The snaks today and tomorrow are chicken and chicken soup which I cooked yesterday. Lunch was pork chops with asparagus and spinach, and dinner was fish with bean sprouts. The food was enought today and I hope tomorrow it be ok also.

I did 1.10 hours workout. I am pushing it harder to see changes on my body. So far I can see them on my waist and stomach. Michael wanna try the diet, I told him I am not going to translate the book for him (because last time that I did something like that to help him it was a waste of my time) so I told him the name of the book. He bought it from eBay and today he got the book! Let's see if he really does it. I don't believe he will take the time to buy the food and cook to bring it to the work. We will see.

The bean sprouts growed very well. In just 2 days I got them done and saved them in the fridge. It is not a normal taste for me but it is not so bad, a little bitter in my opinion but I eat them anyway.
I wont design today, I am delayed with those works because I spend my free time cooking and doing workout. After Friday I have 3 days off so I can catch up with my projects. 

Although it is my second week doing the diet, it is the first I do it correctly. Between parenthesis how much I lost since I started it

Body measurements:

Hips (the widest part): 38.18" (1.57")
Waist (at the level of the navel): 31.49" (1.57")
Thigh: 22" (0.39")
Arm: 9.44" (0.39")

Weight: 129.19 pounds (4.62 pouds)

I woke up at 1 pm and I ate 2 peachs, then I drank green tea and ate some rice cake. Lunch was a beef steak with zucchini and beet. I did a mistake with the afternoon snack and I ate a pear when it is not from the 3th phase then I ate celery with nut butter that I did myself! Lunch was a salad with mung beans, adzuki beans, tomato, quinoa, avocado and beet, and I also cooked sweet potatos in the oven.

There is the resume for this week

I can eat fruit again, hurrah! I woke up feeling good. I had peach, strawberries, blueberries and oatmeal for breakfast, then I get dressed and did my makeup. I left the neutral colors and chose blues and gray.  I wore pretty normal (black pants, blue chiffon shirt and high heel shoes) but many men told me compliments today looool, maybe what made me sexy was not the clothes but the positive attitude :-D 

Because last night I stayed up late playing Magic Cards on the tablet, today I felt sleepy all day long 😁 My coworker, which did literally nothing, pissed me off tapping his foot making noise. He knows I hate it so always I ask to him to stop, he does it more.

Sales manager finally gave me an answer about the pay rise I asked for. I am not sure if this is good deal or no, they offered me a % from the sales of the machines we have more sales. It is just the 0,3% so it does not sound great. I calculated that % about the sales of this year which is our worst year for sure and it was not so bad. Anyway I got a small pay rise last month and now I will get this new one so I think I will earn what I wanted. Despite the money my main goal was losing the fear to ask for it. I never asked for pay rise in none of the jobs I worked before because I was afraid to get a NO as answer or even to get fired. But this year I am learning to deal with that for grow up, the only one who can make my life fairer is me.

Morning snack was peach. For lunch I had a salad with brown rise, tomato, tuna, olives and avocado. Afternoon snack was strawberries and blueberries.  For dinner I cooked chicken with onions and sweet red pepper and I added soy sauce. I ate it with tomato and avocado.
I did not do exercises today, I am tired because yesterday workout and because it is the second day in a row that I wear high heel shoes lol

 Now that the day is over I can say it was not as hard as I thought. I woke up 7 am and cooked the breakfast. It was spinach omelette with eggs white and I was not excited about it, I always have sweet things for breakfast 

Morning snack was the chicken soup and it was delicious! I saved half for tomorrow. For lunch I had beef steak with asparagus then I left work to went to the post office to send something I sold, and I went to the bank. This took me 2 hours and actually it was good to walk and be outside the office. I was a little anxious about food because it seemed to me that I was going to be hungry all day long so being busy helped me not to think about this. I didn't feel hungry until 4 pm when I had the afternoon snack which was chicken and cooked white egg... I feel a little weird eating those things at that hour! 
After work I went to the butcher shop and I bought chicken, meat and pork. I got Flor near home and I invited her to have dinner with me so we came home together. I cooked some meat with tomatoes for her because I was not going to make her to eat the same food than me. For dinner I had grilled pork chops and asparagus cooked in lemon... delicious. 

So.. the food was enough, I did not starve, I had a lot of meat and the whole day I just ate 1100 calories  The nutrient balance is 46% proteines (126 g), 38% fat (15.6 g although I ate everything without fat) and 16% carbohydrates. Just one more day like this and I can have again fruits and more vegetables.