The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Today my boss told me that she had a dream about me. In her dream I was at the airport because I was going to get a flight. I exclame: Nice! was I leaving for vacations? and she told me "No, It was a one-way trip. You was moving to another country with so much bags... and I saw you and I thought Oh Nati is leaving" but she said that I was very happy. I hope her dream becomes true lol, but it's so weird that she had that dream with me, she doesn't even know that I flight to USA nor even know about Michael. 

It was a looooong day for me, I had bad sleep. At 10 am I was sleepy although the 2 cups of coffee I drank. At 3 pm I had to go with smelly guy to Cameron company to meet a customer there. I hardly ever have meeting with customer, I'm not seller and that's not my job, but sales manager wanted I go there who knows for what. I tried to be polite with my coworker, I talked to him, I hear his problems with his ex, I bought coffee for both he and me, and I almost acted like a normal human. When we left Cameron it was late to go back to the office so he drove me to home. Few minutes before to get home he started to smell :(

I had dinner then I sat at the computer to answer many emails to my customers. Today I got a new customer so I have a lot of work to do. I could not design though because it's getting late and I need sleep. I could read my friends feed today, I'll try to catch up with journals tomorrow!

It was a stressful day. I got to work at 7.30 am and when I went into the building I could see smoke... too much smoke. The place was warm and smelt weird, but it was not like fire. I was sure it was the machine for washing tools. I walked to it and looked where the switch was, I could not see it. I didn't want to unplug it so what to do? First of all I opened the metal curtain to dissipate the smoke then I called my coworker who operate the washing but he didn't answer. I called my other coworker and he told me how to stop it. My office smelt awful the next hour. 

I worker hard to finish designing of all the brochures we need to print and bring to the trade show in 2 weeks. I couldn't finish today, one more brochure to design. I'm running out of time and that stress me so much. So far we are missing many things for the trade show and I feel nobody else can understand how bad this can be if we don't get everything done on time. Sales manager is not doing well with the organization of this event so my boss is calling me to re organize things. This is what always happens to me in my work... she will keep taking other people to manage the company but making me fix their mistakes.

After writing my last entry today, I got a new project to do and they need the design for tomorrow or after tomorrow. I took it, it's simple design and easy money. This people are also interested on my hosting service. I need to organize my business asap, it's growing so fast.

To add stress to my day workers next to my building are working again at night... oh thanks for that mtf!

I worked all the weekend to finish the website for the new company. Although they sent me few photos and almost no content to fill every section I did my best and they are happy. We agreed they need to send me more info but for now I can't do anything else. When the guy saw the website he told me "this is exactly what I had in mind". It's a win.

There are more designs that I have to do for them: business cards, paper, folders, etc, but those work is easier. Tomorrow I'll start to design the logo for another customer then her website with catalogue. I will work too in the catalogue for another website that I did 1 year ago.

I have another business in mind that I want to think and organize, I should write it down in my bullet journal :P

I spent the weekend mostly sitting working in the computer and I had few breaks to drink coffee, eat snacks and do squats. My neck and back hurt and I'm very tired, but it worths.

I don't know how often I'll be able to write here and to read other journals, I'll try to do it even at lunch time because writing help me to be relaxed. That worries me is all the coffee that I know I'll drink while designing to stay awake late. In the other hand there is the trade show that I have to attend in 3 weeks.  This means I can't design those 4 or 5 days.

A lot of things will be delayed, like my new bullet journal, English lessons, handwriting practises, workout and who knows what else, but hey, my project are growing and nothing will stop me :)

Yesterday after work I went to the supermarket to buy some metallic markers which was 50% off but they were out of stock.... annoying!!! I got upset then I went to the bakery and I bought pastries to comfort myself with a dose of sugar, ha!

After eat them and drink coffee I sat my ass in the chair and I draw logos for 8 hours, doing a break just to eat pizza and drink more coffee. At midnight I had 6 model of logotypes that can work. I showed them to Michael and he liked 3 of those. I have 2 which are my favorites. I was so tired and my body was hurting because the stress that I went to the bed and I fell asleep around 2 am. Nerdy Saturday for me!

Now I just sent an email to my customer with a sketch of the logos and I feel anxious and nervous waiting for him reply. This is a new company that he is starting and I had to think logos almost without information. There where not a list of values or vision, concepts that he wants to transmit or even any info about what kind of logo he would like so I had to guess. I don't like he pushed me to do the work fast but he's a good customer and he's always happy with my work so I don't want to lose this customer. This take at least 1 week to make a good logo but I have not that time, he wants everything ready for the end of this month (logo, website, corporate identity, brochures, etc). This is why I feel unsure about the work I did... should I draw new logos while waiting his feedback? arrrrrrrrrg so stressed!!!!!

I want to start my bullet journal this weekend but I'm not sure if I will have time for it today :(

After work I came home and worked for a while on the website of one of my customers but I felt so sleepy that I had to take a nap!. I woke up at 7 pm then I worked 3 hours on the website. I could not finish what I was doing because the dinner was ready then Martu and I went to my sister's apartment. She did some meat stuffed with vegetables, it was delicious. After eat we drink coffee and stayed talking about random topics. We had nice time :)

At 1 am I came back home but now I was so sleepy to continue working on websites so I went to the bed and I read "The woman in cabin 10" until 4 am, then I fell asleep.

I want to write about some things that are going on last days but I didn't find time to write about.

Michael updated his resume and he applied for a new job. I can't believe that he finally stopped being afraid of everything! He's not happy with his actual job since long time but he was afraid to look for new job and realized that nobody wants hire him, afraid to fail. I hope he gets a better job, it will helps him a lot to build confidence. He also started working on his agenda to add some things that he wants to do, like losing weight, doing exercise, start his own project again. He also is tracking is sleeping with Fitbit and this scares us. The first day, in 6 hours of sleeping he woke up 21 times (1h 6m total) and he slept deeply just 45 minutes. This explain why he is always tired and irritated doesn't matter how many hours he sleeps. He's afraid he will have a heart attack in this way. Anyway he's being lovely with me. Oh, the flowers he sent me for Valentines lasted many days!


 

The friend and the business partner of my mother keep messaging me to invite me to hang out. The friend is pissing me off, he push so much and keep using the phrase "because at weekend you are alone" to forced me to do something with him. Now he changed his tactic and he "is worried because I'm having hard time and he wants to help me" WTF... who said that I'm having hard time? I can complain about work or how expensive things are here but it doesn't mean that I'm bad and having hard time, I don't need his help at all. This man is really obssesive, that is a very good reason for not to be his friend.

Martu started middle school this week, she was excited about! So bad her enthusiasm will not last long and soon I'll struggle with waking her up early. This year she will have Yoga, Chess and signing Coral, I hope she likes it. I love to see how she grows up, she's doing so well. I leave her in the school at 7pm then I go to work. I get work 1 hour early which means that I'm alone until my coworkers get the office and go home 1 hour early :D

There are new potential customers who want to buy a website. One website is for an online radio and the other is to sell clothes. Let's see if I can get them :)