The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Some situations at work are so pathetic that I don't know if to laugh or to cry. Today I was fine, neutral mood, working at my office when Mr. Enginner sales manager came to work there. He brought his laptop and he settled on the desk of my coworker who this week is doing a services in other province. A while after sales manager was there I lost internet connection. Oh well... I waited few minutes but still no internet. I went downstair and asked to other girl if she had internet, she had.

It was 2.30 pm. I went back to my office and I filed some papers. Someone called to sales manager and I heard that he said to the other person that his cellphone was low battery, and also his laptop. In that moment I knew why I lost internet. When sales manager went downstair for few minutes, I took a look at his laptop. The fucking idiot unplugged something without asking what it was to plug his laptop. The thing that he unppluged was the router for my office...

I decided not to say anything and wait, having almost 4 free hours was not bad! In some point he asked me to do a quote because he was leaving to do something outside. I told him "I don't have internet yet" then he replied "it was not me!" like saying that he didn't touch anything that could make me lost connection. Really you didn't, fucking moron? I smiled and I said "well, if I get connection again i'll do that quote" then he left leaving his laptop there.

If tomorrow when I get work the router is still unppluged I wont plug it. I'll do nothing (and there will be no one who does quotes) until they call the company for computer maintenance and when the technician comes to check my computer and he realizes the router is unppluged then I'll say "Holy crap... it was the sales manager who used that desk yesterday, now I see where he plugged his laptop!".

Back to work yesterday after a long weekend because holidays.  I'm moody and everything irritates me so I didn't write, I don't want the journal be only a place to bitch. I'm trying to do my best to relax and to take things easy. 

At night I'm watching Money heist season 2 while I do some workout with the theraband, bloody brillant serie!. I also try to journaling but I'm behing with May spread. I'm so busy that I don't have so much time for it so I try a simple spread this month. This is how it looks so far:

Saturday morning. I woke up at 7 am and packed my things. I went to the restaurant for breakfast and to wait my coworkers to leave. Smelly guy was late as usual... I should sleep 1 more hour if I knew it was going to happens. our first stop was Mendoza, the province where the seller lives. They decided to take an alternative road for me to see the mountains.

There are areas where they exploit the mountain to remove rocks and lime. We also could see old mines, those that get inside the cave and they haul the rocks in train cars.
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At night it was foggy. I was very sleepy trying not to fall asleep because my coworker was driving fast and it scared me. For some reason that I don't remember he asked me what my opinion is about him. I told him I think he's very destructive and he lives in his past. He told me the story of his life which included cocaine addiction, alcohol abuse, depression, failed marriage, etc etc etc. I let him talk trying not to give an opinion about things he was saying. In some point he started to cry and I was afraid he lost the control of the van. I asked him to stop the car twice but he said he was ok. He also told me that he has joined the umbanda religion (aka called "sect") but that he is not active now. The few I know about that sect is that they sacrifice animals to wash people body with the bood. There in the news I hear often umbanda leaders raping or killing other people. I wanted to know how much inside this religion he was without he feels I was judging him so I asked him to explained to me what they do since I don't know hat doctrine. For all the things he told me it's clear that he believe on them and he is not so inactive how he wants me to believe. He said he believe he has 3 spirits and those are very fuckers like he is, and he accept that he is spiteful and vengeful person but he said he doesn't make his spirits work. i was very stressed with the whole situation and wishing to get home. I didn't show to him I was worried, and said to him he is a young man and he should get his shit together and try to do something productive and good for himself even if he fails time to time. He said that he admire how strong I am and that he appreciate me so much, then invited me and my daughter to his house when his birthday to celebrate with his family. Oh no, thanks.... I don't want him attached to me.

I got home by 2 am, tired as fuck and very stressed then I went to bed and I slept for 10 hours. On Sunday I had lunch with my sister and niece, then I spent the rest of the day feeling tired and doing nothing

On Wednesday I woke up at 8 am, I took a shower and I went to the restaurant for breakfast. I spent the morning looking for a place to print a label and looking for a post office to ship something that I sold in the auction website. Because someone asked me last Sunday if I had the product in stock I knew that this person was going to buy it where I was traveling, so I took it with me.

I designed for a while then we had lunch. At 2 pm we went back to the hotel to get ready for the trade show. It started at 3 pm and we were a little delayed because we stopped to buy coffee. We got the place and walked in, and instantly we started to sweat... even me! I hardly ever sweat, maybe because my slow and lazy heart, but this time I did. I was wearing a undershit and I had to go to the restroom, take it out and just wear the shirt of my uniform. My two coworkers who have overweight were dying because it was so hot. There was not air conditionar nor fans in he place and everyone was complaining about this. Really the organization of the trade show was terrible. By 5 pm I was fine but the other guys were still suffering because the heat.

The seller, who joined the company a couple of months ago, has not confidence yet to talk to people so the other coworker and I had to support him. I talked to people and explained to them how our tools work, and I also did live demonstration more than once. This always works... when a man see a tiny woman like me doing using a tool to do the work that a muscle man does with a hammer this take all his attention. Anyways we did a good team and everything went well.

The trade show ended at 9 pm. We drove to the city center to buy empanadas in a place that the seller knew and I took photos in the way.

Next to the legislature building there is the public library then one of the museum that I wanted to visit but I could not because it's far away from our hotel and of course it was closed at night.

Hello guys, I'm still alive. Last days I had no chance to update my journal so now I'm sitting in the rstaurant of the hotel drinking coffee and ready to write. On weekend I was busy packing clothes and everything what I needed for the trip. I bought a new keyboard for my tablet and shoes very comfortables because if my foot hurt I wont wear high heels the 3 days.

On Monday I got up at 5 am after just 4 hours of sleep. It supposed that my coworker was piking me at 6 am but he arrived at 8 am. I didn't complain because he took a shower before left his home so that was a win. We drove for 14 hours and he didn't smell so I'm right when I say that his smell is because lack of hygiene. I have to say that he did his best not to be creepy. The driving tok so long because one of the routes was losed and we had to take another route, and because I drank 5 cups of coffee and so much water so I had to use the restroom every 1 hour lol.

We arrived to Mendoza at 10.30 pm. The hotel was fine, simple but very clean. My coworker who already know the employees from the hotel becuse all the previous trip that he did, asked to the girl for a room for me with view to the mountain, so I got a room in the 7th floor. I settled then we went to eat. Dinner was burgers, I'm not fan of eating out but nothing that I can do about that. We came back to the hotel at midnight and I went to my room very sleepy wishing can rest but I had to work in some designs. Because I forgot to ask the wi-fi password I had to connect to my computer at home using my iPhone so I designed in the screen of the phone :(

Oh while we were driving, all my customers were mailing or messaging me to give me more designs to do. Also my hosting went off for a while and emails were not working. When I tried to send a ticket to my provider for he fix this, I entered to a zone without signal so I had to wait to get connection again and send the ticket. It was so stressful! That night I designed until 1 am then my mind stopped working and I decided to sleep.

Next day I woke up at 6 am and open the window to see the mountan, it was still dark. I ook a shower, get dressed and I went downstair to ask the wifi password and work in th designs. At 8 am I went to my room and I could see the mountains. Then i knocked the door of the room where my coworker slept, not signals of him. I went to the restaurant to have breakfast. My coworker came 1 hour after. We waited for another coworker who lives in that province for he come to the hotel to joined us then we left to our final destination.
 

Today my boss told me that she had a dream about me. In her dream I was at the airport because I was going to get a flight. I exclame: Nice! was I leaving for vacations? and she told me "No, It was a one-way trip. You was moving to another country with so much bags... and I saw you and I thought Oh Nati is leaving" but she said that I was very happy. I hope her dream becomes true lol, but it's so weird that she had that dream with me, she doesn't even know that I flight to USA nor even know about Michael. 

It was a looooong day for me, I had bad sleep. At 10 am I was sleepy although the 2 cups of coffee I drank. At 3 pm I had to go with smelly guy to Cameron company to meet a customer there. I hardly ever have meeting with customer, I'm not seller and that's not my job, but sales manager wanted I go there who knows for what. I tried to be polite with my coworker, I talked to him, I hear his problems with his ex, I bought coffee for both he and me, and I almost acted like a normal human. When we left Cameron it was late to go back to the office so he drove me to home. Few minutes before to get home he started to smell :(

I had dinner then I sat at the computer to answer many emails to my customers. Today I got a new customer so I have a lot of work to do. I could not design though because it's getting late and I need sleep. I could read my friends feed today, I'll try to catch up with journals tomorrow!

It was a stressful day. I got to work at 7.30 am and when I went into the building I could see smoke... too much smoke. The place was warm and smelt weird, but it was not like fire. I was sure it was the machine for washing tools. I walked to it and looked where the switch was, I could not see it. I didn't want to unplug it so what to do? First of all I opened the metal curtain to dissipate the smoke then I called my coworker who operate the washing but he didn't answer. I called my other coworker and he told me how to stop it. My office smelt awful the next hour. 

I worker hard to finish designing of all the brochures we need to print and bring to the trade show in 2 weeks. I couldn't finish today, one more brochure to design. I'm running out of time and that stress me so much. So far we are missing many things for the trade show and I feel nobody else can understand how bad this can be if we don't get everything done on time. Sales manager is not doing well with the organization of this event so my boss is calling me to re organize things. This is what always happens to me in my work... she will keep taking other people to manage the company but making me fix their mistakes.

After writing my last entry today, I got a new project to do and they need the design for tomorrow or after tomorrow. I took it, it's simple design and easy money. This people are also interested on my hosting service. I need to organize my business asap, it's growing so fast.

To add stress to my day workers next to my building are working again at night... oh thanks for that mtf!

Things that piss me off last 24 hours:

- I got the weights. 3 weight discs drips water. I had no idea why they have water inside but I sent a message to the seller on the auction site to let him to know about this issue. After a while I read my messages but he didn't reply. Instead that, he informed to the site that I got my order. I open a claim on the site and attached photos to it. I had the feeling that the seller won't take care of my problem so I was very pissed. Good thing: this morning the seller call me and told me that it's normal that the discs have a little of water inside and he explained to me the reason, and also told me that usually they drain the discs before sell it. We agree that I'll drain the discs and if they still drips after a couple of days they will change them for others. I hope I can fix it without change, I like the weights very much and I want to use them asap!.

- Martu had a short Math test and she didn't pass it. The test was not programmed and nobody knew they will have to do it, but still it was a test. She got 2/10 and I got very mad about. I took away her phone yesterday and I put her to do the homework. This weekend I'll do the same because she has Math test again on Wednesday.
 

- Workers next to my building stayed working until 1 am last night making loudy noise with their tools. WTF, are they crazy??? this is the first time they work during the night and I hope this be the last. I couldn't sleep until they finished. 5 hours of sleep is all that I got.

- This morning my boss came to work at 8.30 am. Nobody expected she came because she was in a trip, but she came to catch the people who is coming late to work every day. She yelled to 2 guys. After that we spoke about the organization of the trade show and she told me she will send fat ass with me.... thank you for ruining my Friday!!! If this man smells I'll say to him directly, without care if I hurt his feelings. If he harass me I'll kick his ass and tell to him what he does is not right. I won't keep silence anymore. 

- Last week I had a meeting with the daughter of my boss to organize the trade show. Sales manager was not online so she and I took some decisions about what brochures we will print, etc. We cancel some of the brochures that sales manager wanted to print because the company had money troubles last week and because there is not enough time for me to design them and send it to print. Today sales manager called me and I informed to him about this. He said we got money so we will print everything that he originally planned. I asked to him if he already has the design because there is not time to do one and he said he has not but "we will see how we do the design". We??? I WON'T rush to design while I am alone in the office  answering the phone, doing quotes, answering mails, finishing the brochures that we need to print, calculating commissions next week, having a training because we are migrating to a new version of our ERP system, etc, etc, and a lot of etc more.  Why I'll kill myself doing everything alone when he won't even go the the trade show because he will go on vacations????? 

I think there is nothing left to bitch about so far, let's see if I can breath and start my day again!

This should be a good day because it's Friday but so far is not as good as I wish. I took my nieve and Martu to the school and we missed the train because it arrived 3 minutes early to the station... oh well, we had to wait the next train then walk very fast to the school. We made it though. 

The girl who works with me messaged me yesterday to tell me that she deal with my boss she will enter to work earlier, at 8am since I am going early too, so she depends on me to can enter to the office (she has not keys) and I should to say her whenever I'm not going early to work. That bother me a little. I do not want to take responsibility for her schedule nor report her whenever I have something else to do before our normal working hour (at 8.30 am). I replied to her that I'll try to remember to messaged her if I'm not going early though. This morning after left the kids I got her message: "let me know when you take the bus". I was already in the bus 10-15 minutes away from work. It piss me badly that she messaged me when yesterday we deal that I'll just say to her when I am NOT going early, but now she wants I report to her every time I get the bus???? I'm sorry but NO. I don't want to start my morning stressed running to the school then keeping in mind that I have to report to her when I get the fucking bus. I usually arrive to the office at 7.35-7.45 so there is not reason for me to report a coworker when the hell I get the bus unless I arrive late.
 

To make my morning worse, I checked all the emails that I got the 3 days I was working from home to see if my other coworker did good replacing me... of course he doesn't. There are quotes that he didn't do, sales process that he didn't finish, emails that he didn't reply but he didn't let me know about this after I went back to the office. He knows how to do the work but he doesn't do because he is looking for new job so he gives a shit. 

I got my new exercise bands today, need to try them. I bought few more things for the bullet journal and Mike got the fine point markers I bought from Amazon :)

Now I'm working on a new website while trying to get inspiration to draw a logo.

I can't believe that I'm going to say this: this is a happy MONDAY! D: The word happy sounds not compatible with the word Monday. 

My excellent mood is because I'm working from home the next 3 days, which means I'll enjoy the daylight through the window, wear comfortable clothes and do chores while I work (like washing, cooking, etc) or do beauty care.

After work I'll go to the store and see if there is any nice notebook to start my bullet journal and maybe I'll print the stickers :)