The Unbearable Lightness of Being

It surprises me how persistent and tenacious I'm being. Even though I have not taken vacations and I'm physically and mentally exhausted, I keep going. Last night I  was lying on the bed, sore from cramping because period and falling asleep, then I left the bed and I did 40 minutes workout. I did the "leg burner" training then bum exercises using the ankle weights. Today my legs don't hurt like they hurted last week, it's a win.

It was another busy day at work. My coworker, who is supposed to help me this week with quotes, again left earlier leaving me alone. On Friday he will do the same, he will leaves the office at 1 pm. to do personal things. Thanks for not helping I guess. Before the administrative guy go on vacations I asked him if there is any of his tasks that I need to finish, he said there is nothing that I need to do because sales manager was going to do it. Today sales manager and me were making a list with the tools we need to buy this week. I asked him if he knows how to do the purchase order to send to the factory... he doesn't know. He has no idea how to do the tasks that my other coworker does, but can you guess who already know how to do it? 
Yes... I got another task to do. 

Today I finally could make utorrent works with my VPN. I'm catching up with Game of Thrones. A couple of years ago when I used to download series, my conection was so bad that I got bored trying to download something. Now, although I'm using a VPN which  makes my conection slower, i can download a whole season while I'm working. I think I'll download Silicon Valley season 2 after GOT, and maybe It's always sunny in Philadelphia. 

I hope you guys had a good day. Half week gone, weekend is almost there! :D

I woke up at 8.30 for work, someone was already calling me by phone. I didn't  pick up the phone and I went to the kitchen to make coffee.  When coffee was ready I sit at the computer and I spent all the morning doing quotes and answering the calls. I don't know why my coworkers love calling me, maybe they have no one at home who listeng to them. 

At noon I got another coffee then I joined the Wind Power training. To be honest I didn't pay so much attention to it, I was still working in other tasks in wich I'm delayed. They guy who lead the training explained us how to apply torc to windmills and what tools we should use for this. He also explained how hydraulic tensioners work. 

The training ended at 3 pm and I logged off from work. I was about to go to pick the tickets for Dragonland but weather channel showed storm. I decided to stay at home and to go next Saturday. I ate a sandwich then I lay in bed and I watched the last episode of season 1 of Mindhunter.  Not bad a all, I'm looking forward to see the next season.

My legs still hurt because the Leg Burner workout. I want to repeat it tomorrow, let's see if I survive.

I started to watch some adut cartoon on Netflix called Big Mouth. It's about a group of kids going through puberty and all the changes it implies. There is a hormonal monster for the boys and one for the girls. The monster for the boys make them want to jerk off nonstop and to think about sex. The monster of the girls make them be emo, argue with their mothers and cry all the time. The face of that monster looks pretty similar to Rihanna 

Last night I stayed up late reading Code Name Camelot. I enjoy reading that book. The main character is interesting to me since he can't feel any emotion or feeling, all his reaction follow a very logical reasoning without the interference of feelings... in some point I wish I could be like that, I mean I'm very logical too but I can't avoid feelings affect me. 

I had bad sleep and I woke up many times during the night. At 10 am. I gave up trying to sleep and I got up. I cleaned the house and I struggle with the feeling of guilty because yesterday I didn't do all the things I wanted to do so today I'm rushing trying to get all done. 

I did some changes in the catalogue for my client as he asked me to do so that work is done. He already paid me for that and told me he wants to do another new design. I will finish to update the website for my work today because we wants to upload it this week, and I need to start a Google adwords campaign when the website is updated... so, hurry up!

Yesterday I was so tired that I went to bed before midnight. I took the tablet, I setted the account and I saw I can download the series to watch without connection. That is great if you are planning to go to some place whithout wi-fi or also to download something to watch in the plane if you don't like what they offer to watch. 

I watched season 2 of Haters back off because the episodes are kinda short (40 min I think). It was funny, not sure if as funny as season 1 but it was ok to relax a little.  Maybe this time it has more sentimental situation than the first season and they showed more about the story of other characters.

I went to sleep at 4.30 am (that is the bad thing about watching Netflix) and I left some episodes of Stranger things s2 downloading just to see if this works.

 They shouldn't make that serie, and I shouldn't watch this, but now I can't stop. I just watched 4 episodes so far but there is so much I can see that people think hasn't consequences. But they never know if they are hurting so much. When something affect you, you will always get someone who will tell you "you are overacting" "you are so sensible" "You care so much for something that's not a big deal" "there are people who live worse things, stop being a baby" 

That stupid Alex's list is so annoying, and isn't the only thing what some people hold. We have to hold a lot of things that men believe should make us feel flattered but just make us feel harassed. And if you complain about that they call you hysteric, bitch, whore, frigid, or they ask you if you are in ur period. Do you think that just a teen live that shit? There are adult men who take pics with their phones of girls boobs when they are in the bus, I saw that sick shit so many times. Fucking technology. How many women are in the phone of someone who they don't even know just because a man liked her butt or her tits? My fucking coworker takes pics of me when I'm not paying attention, and I can't stop asking myself why he will want a pic of me in his phone? for what? he spends with me 58 hours at week, why he needs pics (yes more than 1) of me.
If I start writing here all the shit I see and I hold every fucking day you will say that I'm obsessed... let me tell you: you made me obssesed. 

And when you got hurted so much for people who don't fucking use their brain before act or before talk, you can't watch this serie without feel that you know the feeling of that girl. And you will want stop the pain, and you will want make justice by urself, but the price that you will pay is so high....
Stoping the pain, making people pay for what they made to you.... so tempting. What else you can do? you born like a "sensible" person! (or maybe they born like fuckers person) and you tried to be strong, but one day you just get tired... you know that there is a way to take the control, to don't let they hurt you again... the only reason why I'm still here is because they dont worth the price that I should pay, and prolly anyway they will continue acting without think first.

I should stop watching this serie now. I'm so fucking upset

I'm so pissed about Netflix cancelled the 3rd season of Marco Polo. I read it's about money... they spent too much money making season 1 and 2 and they didn't have the expected success. I don't know how many people watched it but this serie is GREAT... excelent actors, awesome scenes, and the story caught me.
Last episode of season 2 is OMG...it makes me anxious and mad because I want... no... I NEED to know how this story would continue but... THERE IS NOT A 3RD SEASON!!!!! and there won't have any final for this serie. It is very disrespectful for the people who were watching it.
John Fusco wrote me on Twitter but he didn't confirm why Netflix cancelled it. He said they already wrote the 3rd season. If nobody will put the money to produce it I hope they let us read it... maybe in a nobel format, I don't care how but this serie really deserve a final.
Anyway, after few days pissed I wanted to watch some serie. People is talking about Sherlock season 4... my Netflix still doesnt show it... more pissed I am... some series I'm watching there isn't a new season yet: House of Cards, Stranger Things, Hatters back off, The Flash, Rick and Morty... others I started to watch but they didnt get all my attention: Vikingos, American Horror Story, Black Mirror, Prison Break, Orange is the new black... so yesterday I started watching another Netflix Original Serie: Daredevil. So far it is another super hero serie: good looking boy who suffered in the past trying to save the world. I watched 4 episodes... let's see what happens.

I got 4 days off
Yesterday all that I did was sleep and watching series. I didn't eat nothing at all, just had few cups of coffee.
Sherlock: is brillant! season 1 and 2 are just 3 episodes, 1:30 hours each. And they didn't need use sexual scenes to do something interesting... smart is the new sexy.

Cloudy with a chance of meatballs 2: is boring, the first was more funny in my opinion. 2 starts for me

Today I laid down till 4pm, not desire to do nothing at all. Then I forced myself to get up and take a shower. I had to take a pill to stop feeling like this. Seems pill is working but made me very sleepy. I'm going to study for my English test.. or at least try to study... maybe I will fall asleep.

Btw... one of my babies are blooming

Watched the 2 season, was funny. Each episode is 20 minutes wich is good to see when you don't have so much time to spend in the computer.
I played a couple of hours with Mike then I cleaned the house. I didn't paint my hair today, I'm tired now, I will do it tomorrow.
Mom gave me 100usd for my bday so I have now 700usd for the next vacation with Mike

I really like this serie and the actors. They recreate very well the Asian style, and you can learn a lot about Mongolian and Chinese empire. But I have to pay attention to not get lose with the names of the characters. There you can see history, policy, excelent costumes, action and yes... sex.. maybe more than necessary but it's very common nowaday
I like that the story of each character is interesting, not just Marco story.
No point to compare it with Game of Thrones, in my opinion they are different series but very good.