The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Nope, I didn't fixed my sleeping, I'm working hard to make it worse! Instead to go to bed early, I stayed up late watching series... one more night The collateral damage is that I'm messing with my caffeine adiction which I had under control, but now the lack of sleep means that I need 1 or 2 cups of coffee to not to fall asleep at work.

I had another busy day. Today I wore a cross pattern skirt, something like this but not too short



My coworker, the smelly guy, had to do a comment, as usual It was something stupid like "Oh.. you are so religious today" I mumbled "go away Satanas" and I left the office, a little pissed and feeling uncomfortable. He doesn't do the same to the other girl who works with us. Annoying! Maybe I'm overreacting, I don't know.

Another coworker who has an iPhone asked me if I tried Facetime. I told him I don't know what Facetime is then he explained to me it's an app for videocalls, better than skype or whatsapp. He said I should have the app installed on my phone but we could not find it. I looked for the app on the App Store but I could not get it. I changed the country from my Apple ID but nothing. I was getting pissed. I researched on Internet then I found this: "FaceTime isn’t available or might not appear on some iPhones and iPads purchased or used in Saudi Arabia, Pakistan, and United Arab Emirates, including Dubai." Ya.. I got my iPhone from Dubai 

I installed an app for fitness called Workout Trainer because Samsung health app doesn't show the training plans in the iPhone. I wanted to try a training today but I felt so down when I got home, then I just layed down in the bed and messed with the app. It has pics to explain the exercises but not videos. I would prefer an app with videos, and also a free app. If anyone knows a good app like that please let me know. 
After being lazy for a while I did 1 hour bike while reading the journals.

I'm ready now to go to bed to watch 1 episode of Arrow and to sleep late like usual. If you are still awake, go outside and look at the moon... it's so beautiful tonight! I tried to take pics with the iPhone camera but they are not good. 

Before yesterday I stretched my body and now my legs hurt like I did gym. I tried to work on the newsletter for my job but I felt tired so I went to bed early at 10.30 pm. I studied C++ until midnight then I felt asleep. My sleeping is getting worse. Last night I woke up every 1 or 2 hours.It sucks.

After a day without talk to me, this morning Michael woke me up again. He said that he is trying hard not to bother me but to be honest I have no fucking idea what he is trying to do and right now I don't want to know. I asked again to him to let me go since he can't fix his life. 

Plan for today is continue working on the newsletter at work then go home, clean it, try to do exercises, study and work on my projects. But I'm not sure how much I can do feeling so tired. I am trying a new pill, it has hyaluronic acid, collagen, coenzyme Q10, vitamin A and vitamin E.

I don't know what is going on with me. I'm overactive but I feel tired. I have no idea where my energy comes from because I'm not having good eating and I'm sleeping 4 or 5 hours but I always find a way to force myself to do workout or stay awake till late. I wonder if I'm having hormonal issues or it is just stress. Or maybe I lost the control of my mind.. who knows?
Yesterday I did workout then I took a shower. Dinner last week is tea, fruit, chesse, oatmeal. My body was ready to sleep since I got home but my mind didn't want. At 3am I fell asleep.
Today I went for a walk in my lunch time. Almost 4 km and 5k steps in 35 minutes. I didn't rush. To relax my mind and for cheking how much steps my app miss I count the steps. The app missed almost 600 steps.
Im at the office now, a little sleepy but I have to work.

Yesterday was a waste of day. I did nothing after work, just watch series and sleep. I took a "nap" 7pm then I woke up 4 hours later. And I didn't feel like gettin up so I stayed in the bed talking with Mike about some attitude his has and I don't like. He got offended of course. 1 am I fell asleep again and I woke up today 11.30 am.
It was raining, perfect for sleep all day long but I got like 14 hours of sleep so I forced myself to leave the bed. Despite I slept so much I feel tired and I want do nothing.
I'm cleaning the house but I still need get rid of more things to can organize all in this house. 

Again was very hard to get up this morning because yesterday I fuck my plans to go to bed early.
I was so tired and ready to sleep but I got distracted as usual... first doing beauty routine, then I went to bed and ofc I had to check twitter, then write some nonsense entry here, then check my village in Clash of Clans, then play Candy Crush... when I finally was falling asleep ( around 1am) Mike messaged me and it wake me up again and guess what I did?

Finally I got some rest. Yesterday after work I got home but I didn't went to English class because teacher told me I was the only who was going to class, so I stay at home and I went to bed 9pm . I was chatting with Mike when I fell asleep. I woke up 2am and obviously I fell asleep again till 6.30am. Was so hard to wake up!
I feel still tired and sleepy. Drank 2 coffee, early today, and I don't want start my work.. I'm lazy and there is a lot of things I have to do today grrrrrrrrrrrrr
I had some weird dreams, with other ppl that we were in a pub or something like this, and there in the dream was my mother and her ex husband also, like if we still living together but in the present... a nightmare! And there was also some singer flirting to me but trying to mess with me... fucker.

Definitely tomorrow my body will hurts. Today was Arms & Legs day, I did as much as I can but my arms are weak and I'm fine with it. I have broad shoulders and my collar bones protude out a lil, something i thing is sexy, I don't want big muscles in my arms. So I modify some exercises to tone my arms. And I have to care it doesn't hurt my back. On the other hand I can't fix that stupid position i sleep, over my arms, wich makes me wake up too sore. I tried hard to sleeping on my back but nope, 2 min after I'm in my side again. I will research, maybe there is any technique to help me to fix it.

I like spring because the weather but it's the allergy month. I got allergic pharyngitis and also some allergy on my skin that I heal with aloe vera. I want get a tattoo but now I wonder if do it on September can be a bad idea.
There is a new goal I want to achieve... waking up early to have a decent breakfast, like yogurth, cereals, fruit, etc. instead the poor latte with some cookies. I really need more energy to can hold the workout. But for wake up early I have to go to bed early.... there is where I fail. Even days like today when Mike and me don't stay in the computer playing something together I stay awake till late losing time. Im drinking tea instead coffee at night, it supposed that has theanine wich help to feel relaxed... well it doesn't work on me, maybe I can try drinking warm nonfat milk.

Finally I slept a lil more... 6:30 hours but still I didn't pack. I'm going to do the check-in today, I'm getting anxious!!

Im testing the ultra matte lipstick of Colourpop in some nude color, so far 9 hours usint it and it still stay on. I put vaseline on my lips before apply the lipstick because it will make my lips get very dry. This is a good tip and works fine. I could not take any decent pic of my lips with this stupid cell phone

Just few hours left to be on vacations, I can't wait!