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[nattalie]

Before yesterday I stretched my body and now my legs hurt like I did gym. I tried to work on the newsletter for my job but I felt tired so I went to bed early at 10.30 pm. I studied C++ until midnight then I felt asleep. My sleeping is getting worse. Last night I woke up every 1 or 2 hours.It sucks.

After a day without talk to me, this morning Michael woke me up again. He said that he is trying hard not to bother me but to be honest I have no fucking idea what he is trying to do and right now I don't want to know. I asked again to him to let me go since he can't fix his life. 

Plan for today is continue working on the newsletter at work then go home, clean it, try to do exercises, study and work on my projects. But I'm not sure how much I can do feeling so tired. I am trying a new pill, it has hyaluronic acid, collagen, coenzyme Q10, vitamin A and vitamin E.

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[paw_prints]

Would it be an option for you to block him if he is contacting you and you don't wish him to?

I hope you've managed to get some better sleeps since writing this. <3

[nattalie]

I know it sounds stupid but I block and unblock him nonstop. And the reason is because I don't want to leave him, but I don't want to stay stucked to someone who is stucked. Sometimes we need to take hard decisions...

I still hope one day he message me to tell me he stopped feeling sorry for himself and started fixing his life :(

Sadly my sleeping is still very bad

btw I miss your posts!