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nattalieAnd last night suddenly I felt very bad. And it is not for workout. This is stress. Then, I wonder, how much can I hold?
I'm back on pills. I hate it. I hate pills, I hate when I can't control the things. I hate when I can't be strong enought. I hate unfair things.
First goal for people seems be always get material things. Even if they feel empty inside, even if they also think about suicide, you can see them running behind material things. I found someone who is not in this way... but this person is stucked to someone else who just care about material things, about take adventage, about use others to get more and more, and I wonder... wath is that make them be stucked??? Obviously is not love, then what it is? fear to take decisions? fear to face the truth? material interests? People make me sick.
I'm back on pills. I hate it. I hate pills, I hate when I can't control the things. I hate when I can't be strong enought. I hate unfair things.
First goal for people seems be always get material things. Even if they feel empty inside, even if they also think about suicide, you can see them running behind material things. I found someone who is not in this way... but this person is stucked to someone else who just care about material things, about take adventage, about use others to get more and more, and I wonder... wath is that make them be stucked??? Obviously is not love, then what it is? fear to take decisions? fear to face the truth? material interests? People make me sick.
