Awake...

[nattalie]

As I wrote today, even when I'm tired and I lay on bed, I can't fall asleep before 1 or 2 am. I came to bed for sleep then I keep chatting with Mike and even when he said gn i keep awake, checking my village in Clash of Clan game, looking pics on Instagram, and also writing here. My lack of concentration, stress and dyslexia this week are fucking my mind. I started to take again the pills for relax but just 1/3 every night to see what dosis I will be able to hold without it makes my heart beat very slow. So far I don't feel pills are working at all. Still with insomnia and stressed. Prolly I should try taking half and see what happens but I will not try it till friday because when pills work on me it make my heart beat less than 52bpm and I skip work cuz I fall asleep. Even if I try some deep breath to relax I get hyperventilation lol seems I just can get sex for relax xD